Before diagnosis, Ke'Ala and our family saw many doctors and was given many possible diagnosis before a doctor finally correctly diagnosed and successfully treated her. I will not go into every detail of every mistake made along the way due to the lack of education and awareness of the doctors. But below is a quick listing of what we went through before her recovery.
One lab visit in week seven of her hospitalization, requested by unconvinced parents and a pediatrician that had tested and treated PANDAS before. The rest is our journey out of the special kind of hell that too many families of children that have been misdiagnosed with mental illness are suffering.
Ke’Ala’s PANDAS Story
Last winter, our daughter, Ke’ala, at eleven years old, became very ill, quite suddenly with psychiatric symptoms that went misdiagnosed and heavily medicated to the point of catatonia and suicide. Now, as we relive that ungodly winter, with all of the anniversaries, we are horrified by what she endured at the hands of people that we entrusted to help her.
It is imperative that the medical community be educated about PANDAS/PANS so that when a child presents with psychiatric symptoms, they FIRST rule out infection-based causes. We have a moral obligation to all children that we ensure this happens so that no child needlessly endures a world of pain and fear so deep, and the sense of helplessness and terror that our daughter did.
After many years of Gracie being too embarrassed to have her story told, she has agreed that if her story helps one child not suffer what she has endured, it is worth it. So...here is her PANDAS story...
As I tell her story, I will place in when she had an infection, but note that I only discovered the connection many years later by placing her medical records on a time line with photos and other memorabilia.
Started with a Stutter
Gracie was the perfect baby and toddler. I mean perfect! She never cried, always smiled, and took in everything around her with joy. She talked at 6 months, walked right on time, learned her letters by 1 years old, spoke 10 word sentences by 1 years old, and seemed to learn anything that came her way easily. She was an independent kid who never hesitated to go into new situations without me by her side. At 18 months old, she got a strep throat. She soon began to stutter, repeating sounds, words, and parts of sentences over and over. It was exhausting to try and wait for her to get a thought out. She began speech therapy. It did little to help, but her stuttering would just disappear almost over night. We would joke and call it her 'bumpies'. We later realized that Gracie's bumpies correlated with her getting sick. Her bumpies would start, and I would say, "Ut'O, your bumpies are back. You will be sick within 2 days." And sure enough...she was. This went on for years.
Sudden Separation Anxiety
At 3 1/2 years old, she all of a sudden did not want me to leave her at preschool or gymnastics. She clung to me where she was once her happiest and most excited to go. I chalked it up to normal toddler stuff. It did not last that long, but would come and go after a period of sickness. Life was pretty normal for a few years with small bouts of red-flag issues.
No one can tell the stories of what it is like to live with PANS/PANDAS like those that have experienced it. The list of symptoms and descriptions of various treatment protocols does not bring the condition to life. The family or patient telling their individual story is what illuminates the day-to-day struggles and triumphs our children and families experience.
For families living with PANS/PANDAS, the aim of sharing these stories is to help you not feel so alone in your struggles, to let you know there is a family out there just like you, and ultimately to let you know that there is hope. For those who are just beginning to learn about this autoimmune disease, we hope you begin to understand PANS PANDAS with greater depth.
As more stories are contributed, a wider picture of what the condition is like will form including how many similarities there are and how many differences there are in its manifestation, in the path to diagnosis, in treatment options and in the outcomes. NEPANS invites you share your story with us today. Below are the guidelines for submitting a PANS PANDAS Family Story.
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